october lights.

just an update, for all you lovelies who care about me. This is a long one.

Declaration of dependence. So, I had a tough summer. I was really stressed and I think a little depressed at times. I had alot going on and it all softened me up. I was looking back at my blogs...on the other social network...and it sounded as if I was going to slit my wrist...complaint after complaint. I guess this is my formal apology- except I don't apologize on my own blog so.....
But, I'm writing to say I'm all over that melodrama. I'm going back to the old shaun. Sometimes an asshole, sometimes a bum....but always BADASS.

I'm goin back to the "don't give a f*ck" days.


New bedding system. So, I just upgraded to a full size bed. Yep, I've been in chi-town for a yr, and just got a grown up bed. And...well, I'm not sure what to do with it. I stay waking up with a whole half bed unused. How do I go about acclimating. I mean, I sure as hell aint sharing, the only other thing that rummages around in my covers is my left hand (ewwww, shaun is so gross).
Anyway, now that I'm a grown up...I need to learn how to use all of my bed. Def still in college mode. Whap whap. I feel as if I'm doing my sleeping body a disservice.


Lonely. I had this crazy dream the other night. It involved a friend, tears and the police. The friend i told it to analyzed it as "me being lonely." Granted, she is not a dreamologist, but should I be worried? Eh, just thought I'd bring it up.

Wild man. So about operation beard and fro. Just so that we are all on the same page, I am growing my hair out as well as producing a mean beard. I was told that both are out of fashion...like 70's porn star meets Kid and Play- out of style. to them I say NAY, sir NAY.....here is what I hope to accomplish.




the hair of "black csi guy" and the beard of andre agassi. Let's do it. All i have to say, is think continuous itching and tons of grease, on a hair schedule. Sexy, neosoul tennis player.



TV& Films. Lets get a Hoorah for American Gangster and Across the Universe. I NEED to see both of these in the theater. Unfortunately, all of my roommates are way to picky about what they go to the movies to see. I think in 9 months, I've went to the movies with my roommate Matt like 3 times. And I only wanted to see one of the movies. Kelly likes to act like he wants to go to the movies, but never commits./ Kid Nation- what started out as the ridiculous antics of kids, is now a big bore.Cant wait until Lil Billy put his pee pee in 2 year old Sussie...that will spice things up a bit./Prison break- my roomate has me watching this lame ass show, but unfortunately, I'm kinda into it now./ Heros- always relatively entertaining for Monday TV./ Real World- cant wait till tomorrows episode. I hope Parissa gets that girl good And someone needs to get Cuhutta's country ass off the show.Everytime he speaks, my head literally explodes./ I don't feel like I'm far enough into top model to commenton anything just yet./HBO's Tell Me You Love Me had a hole lotta sex in the first 2 episodes...just to suck you into the drama filled plot-bastards better be glad I love drama.


And, I guess that's all. Chicago has decided to cool off, after it killed a few people and then realized that it was October and should infact be cold. "Oh yeah. Its usually chilly right now...cause winter is coming." (thats chicago speaking, if you didn't know). The roommates are doing well. They all decided to temp...like yours truly. I'm finishing up my portfolio. The sky is still up, and the ground is still down. My cousins were in NY yesterday, and I was a little jealous that I was stuck here in Illinois.

Well, if I've sufficiently bored you into a cleverly written word induced comma. Wake the fuck up and do a line...cause there is another one coming soon bitches.

That is all. Except....whap whap to Brittany Spears new video. After you wasted 4 minutes of my life, I officially support all of the negative things that are happening to you. How many times are you going to spin around the freaking pole? She was better at the VMAs (brought to you by dancing blind Walrus entertainment).




Word(s) of the Week:
"You are in charge of how people make you feel. You and only you." - Sam